June Intentions

A new month means new goals to set. Some of these are continuation of goals from the last month to keep them going or restart them again.

Personal

  • Continue to make healthier choices for groceries
  • Start filling out habit tracker daily again
  • Get cleared to work out again at my six week postpartum appointment
  • Start the Barre Blend program

Financial

  • Keep limiting take out to once a week
  • Update Quicken once a week
  • Track bills in my Erin Condren planner

Blog

  • Post once a week at minimum
  • Plan out calendar of topics
  • Keep running list of topic ideas on notes page

Professional

  • Stay on top of e-mails and communication if needed

Reading

  • Pick summer books to read
  • Post to book club page

I’m looking forward to working on these as the month progresses! What are your intentions or goals for June? Let me know in the comments below!

May Latte Date

Well here’s my first latte date with you! I’m looking forward to our chat together. 😊 Grab your favorite drink, whether it’s a cup of coffee or tea, a cocktail, or even a glass of water and let’s talk.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you that I can’t believe the twins have been here for a little over 3 weeks already! They’ve grown so much in the little time that they’ve been outside of me and I love watching them change every week that goes by. I’m looking forward to their one month appointment next week to see how much they’ve grown in weight and height. Some days with them are super easy and others are really hard. Andrew and I are a great team and I’m so lucky to have an amazing husband to parent our babies with!

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you that I’m loving blogging again. It feels nice to have an outlet for my thoughts and I’m not putting pressure on myself to having a posting schedule or write about things I don’t care about. I’m gonna keep doing it until I either can’t keep it up any more or it becomes stressful like last time.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you I’m definitely over all this COVID-19 stuff. Where I live in Northern Michigan things are slowly opening back up but, especially now with new babies, I’m cautious to venture out or be around other people. Before it was because I didn’t want to get the virus while pregnant and either give it to them or be separated from them immediately after birth and now it’s because I don’t want them or me exposed to it. I wish it was less stressful and we could be around family without worry but we can’t. It’s not a risk we’re willing to take with them. Maybe one day. It wears on me mentally at times and I’m making an effort to get outside as often as I can to improve my mood and state of mind. That does help.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you I already have work on my mind. Even though I don’t go back till July 4th I wish it was longer or that I could cut my hours down. Unfortunately neither are possible and that makes me a little sad. I’ll miss my babies so much! I’m dreading having to be apart from them for 36 hours a week. Hopefully it won’t be as bad as I’m imagining it will be. Fingers crossed!

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you I already miss being pregnant. I loved feeling them move inside of me and watching my belly grow every week (don’t miss the reflux and hip pain though!). I’m seriously considering us having another baby in the future. We’ve decided to wait and see how we do with the twins before we make a decision on calling it good or going for more, cause I’m sure they’ll be a handful as they get older. And besides, what’s to say it wouldn’t be twins again? Alexander and Audrey were spontaneous twins so it’s entirely possible it could happen again. Something for us to consider when we make our decision.

What would you talk about with me on our latte date? Anything on your mind or something interesting going on that you want to share? Tell me about it below in the comments!

That’s a wrap! It was great to catch up with you and I can’t wait for our next latte date. ☺️ Until then enjoy some pictures of the babies and my bump progression photo.

First Week At Home With Twins

I’ll be honest. I thought it would be harder. But having my husband on leave with me, being super supportive and helping as much as he can, has made having two babies fairly easy.

Don’t get me wrong! The lack of sleep and having to stay up on laundry and dishes (my hubby has been doing most of the cleaning) has been difficult in and of itself and breastfeeding has had its own challenges. But I’m loving being a mom and all of it is totally worth it for our sweet babies.

We discharged from the hospital after being there for 4 days (Wednesday morning thru Saturday night) and our first night was rough on me. I wanted the babies in my sight when I was trying to sleep and even then I was anxious about going to sleep and either not hearing them crying or choking. Plus around 4am they seemed to get extra fussy and wanted to cluster feed which wore me down mentally. In hindsight I realized I tried to take on too much myself and should have leaned on my husband more for support and help. I’m a prideful and independent person by nature so asking for help has always been hard for me.

After that first night we realized we needed to tweak our schedule to find a better routine. Now we’re doing shifts so that we can each get a chunk of sleep time and at least not be zombies all the time. I’ll pump once a day to have breast milk available for when I’m sleeping which is given to the babies before formula is offered if they’re still hungry.

In the hospital Alexander developed jaundice and had to be on a BiliLight to help pull the bilirubin out. The pediatrician wanted us to start supplementing feeds with formula to help clear his system out. We also made the decision to do this for Audrey too because she is the tinier twin. This has worked out well so far and they’ve started gaining weight back after their initial loss (this is normal with newborns due to water weight from floating in fluid for 9 months).

Our first pediatrician appointment was on the first Monday after we went home. They both had lost some weight which I took personally and had a crying episode in the office. I was trying so hard to stick to the 2-3 hour feeding schedule with breast milk first then formula and when I found out they were losing weight it made me feel like a failure, that I was doing it wrong or not doing enough (plus I was also super sleep deprived and hormonal). The doctor reassured me that she wasn’t concerned as this was an expected weight loss after birth which reassured me a lot. We also discovered that Alexander’s bilirubin levels were rising again and he needed to go back in the BiliLight to bring it down as well as increase his formula intake, which would help with the weight loss as well.

I had another mini breakdown at home about him needing the light again because I felt awful that he had to be on it in the hospital to begin with. I think a part of me felt like it was my fault because our blood types are different which they said increases the risk of jaundice and because he was stuck and I was pushing so hard for so long he came out with bruising on his face (I’ll go more in to detail about that in their birth post) which also increases the jaundice risk. Plus it was hard to watch him wear an eye mask to protect his eyes that he hated and kept pulling off. Turns out I needn’t have worried cause he didn’t even need the eye mask with this home machine which I was so thankful for. It was much easier to deal with!

Our second pediatrician appointment two days later went better. They both gained some ounces back and his bilirubin levels were low enough to not need the light anymore. 🙌🏻

Talk about a whirlwind week! Lots of emotions, adjustments, and, of course, as many baby snuggles as I could get. ☺️

Confirmation Appointment

As soon as I got positive at-home pregnancy tests, being a nurse myself, I knew I wanted to schedule a confirmation appointment for blood work for the ultimate answer. My doctor’s office is awesome and was able to get me in quickly so it was yesterday that I went in.

We chatted about symptoms, my last menstrual cycle date, medications that I can take safely, how much of the important vitamins and minerals I need to be taking, and what my first OB appointment will be like. They drew my quantitative HCG levels to see if that was on track and gave me a referral to an OB-GYN.

My HCG level came back at 3634.0 mIU/mL which is where it should be as I’m nearing the 5th week of pregnancy. Today I’m 4 weeks and 6 days. That number is very promising!

I don’t know if they will check it again before my first OB appointment but today I’m going to call and schedule this and perhaps they can tell me then. I’m expecting that they will not schedule it until I’m after 8 weeks which would be after October 9th. I’m super excited to get an ultrasound picture and listen to the heartbeat of our little one and for Andrew and I to experience this together. 💕

Baby O’Brien

As I mentioned in my intro post, we’re expecting a baby! Yay! 😁🎉

We only just found out a few days ago on September 10th. The week before I began to experience some mild cramping and pressure feelings in my lower abdomen as well as bloating and increasingly tender breasts. My cat, Bella, always tries to cuddle up as close to my face as she can and it hurt more than usual when she walked over my torso.

My husband, Andrew, was out of town for work training and I was tempted to wait until he returned to take a test but I was anxious to see if it would finally be positive. We’ve been trying all summer and only gotten negative results so I was expecting it to be another no. I was super shocked to actually see two lines on the test stick!

Just to be extra sure I knew I needed to do a digital test that actually said the word because I wouldn’t believe it until I saw that and I also wanted a foolproof way to show Andrew. I had to wait an hour to build up enough to take the second test but I was anxious as I waited with my thoughts racing. Was this real? Could we actually do this? Were we ready?

Finally I could take the next test and I started tearing up looking at the words “pregnant” across the screen.

Since Andrew was out of town I knew I needed to decide if I was going to wait until he got back in a few days and find a cute way to tell him or if I was just going to tell him when we spoke on the phone later. Because I was so excited to tell him and he knew I would be taking a test soon anyways I decided to tell him over the phone and text him the pictures of the tests. He was just as shocked as I was but also really excited!

A few days later I scheduled my confirmation appointment with my doctor this upcoming Monday and I can’t wait to get more proof of our little baby growing! According to the apps that I’ve been using I’m 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant, so still really early and for this reason we’re waiting to tell our family and friends.

Baby O’Brien is due, if calculations are accurate, around May 20th, 2020 and we could not be more happy!