June Latte Date

How is June already almost over? Time is just going by so fast! We’re definitely trying to make the most of it but honestly with the babies and our all over the place sleep schedule it’s a big blur. Grab your latte or coffee or tea and let’s chat about it!

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you the babies surpassed 1 month old and now are almost 2 months old already! I can’t believe the time is flying by but we’ve been in survival mode and just doing what it takes to get through each day. Sleep, eat, play, repeat. They’re getting so big and filling out their newborn clothes almost too well. They fit best in the 0-3 month sizes right now. I can’t wait to see how much they weigh at their 2 month appointment. At this one they’ll get all their shots which I’m not looking forward to watching them cry but I know they need them.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you I start working again July 5th and I’m not looking forward to going back just yet. I’m nervous about doing it with our erratic sleep schedule and how we’ll handle juggling me being away for 12+ hours, 3 days a week. Andrew isn’t going back to work till August some time so at least we can ease back in to work life and maybe have the babies sleeping through the night by the time he does go back. Keeping my fingers crossed on that one.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you I started a new workout program with Beachbody called Barre Blend. It’s just challenging enough to get me sweating and achy without being too much for my postpartum body. My knee does not like all the ballet tip toe moves though. 😅 Now I just need to reign in my nutrition. We’ve been making healthier choices for groceries and meals. Now we just need to stick to them.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you postpartum is different than I expected. I don’t know why I thought this but I always thought the postpartum bleeding would be way worse and that my belly would shrink down as the skin tightens. That has definitely not happened. My stomach is now like a soft, squishy pillow with loose skin and stretch marks. It doesn’t really bother me because I carried two babies at once and am getting back in to exercise to try and tighten and tone my body, plus the person who would see it more than me has already seen it. My weight has fluctuated a lot too, I think from water weight, and my feet became swollen again this week. No fun!

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you breastfeeding is going okay but not as good as it could be. Because of how we’re doing our sleeping in shifts I actually have been only breastfeeding when I’m awake and it’s time for them to eat otherwise they get bottles of formula. When they do breastfeed I’m not producing enough milk to satisfy them (I would pump 5 ounces each session before and they sometimes eat 5 ounces each) so we still have been supplementing and mostly using formula. Which doesn’t really bother me because fed is definitely best, they’re growing like weeds, and there’s two of them and one of me. I know my supply has dropped and I’ve considered doing lactation cookies or something to boost it back up. I’d like to keep breastfeeding as long as I can but at the rate it’s going I wouldn’t be surprised if we only made it another few months or less which does make me a little sad. I’m going to find a good cookie recipe and see if it helps at all. Any recommendations?

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you that I went through a touch of the postpartum blues. Our lives were definitely flipped on its axis when our beautiful babies arrived, and while we wouldn’t change anything, it’s been quite the adjustment and doing things we want to do takes way more effort to make happen. The sleep deprivation hit me way harder than I thought it would and I had quite a few emotional breakdowns. So every 2 weeks or so we’ve had to adjust our sleep routine for my sanity and his. Right now we’re doing 3-4 hour blocks of sleep with an overlap of awake time so that we can take care of the babies and settle them back down before we’re back to solo time. It’s working out okay for now and we’ll have to change this again when I go back to work.

What would you talk about with me on our latte date? Anything on your mind or something interesting going on that you want to share? Tell me about it below in the comments!

Summer Bucket List

Every season I love to make a list of things I want to do before it ends in a few months. This summer will be unique, not just because of the pandemic, because some of the things I would normally do we won’t be able to, like go to the county fair (it’s not happening this year) or go to the beach for long if at all (the babies are too young still. Either way I’m going to try and do as many things as we can while it lasts. Summer always goes way too fast!

  • Go to the Village Cheese Shanty and get a sammie
  • Have a beach day
  • Get Moomers ice cream cone
  • Shop at the farmer’s market
  • Eat watermelon
  • Get flowers from Omena’s U-Pick
  • Pick blueberries at a u-pick
  • Have a picnic
  • Eat fruit popsicles
  • Get a mani pedi
  • Have my hair cut and lightened

That’s usually the core things I try to do or places I like to go to every year. We’ll see how many I can get to this summer with the kiddos!

May Latte Date

Well here’s my first latte date with you! I’m looking forward to our chat together. 😊 Grab your favorite drink, whether it’s a cup of coffee or tea, a cocktail, or even a glass of water and let’s talk.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you that I can’t believe the twins have been here for a little over 3 weeks already! They’ve grown so much in the little time that they’ve been outside of me and I love watching them change every week that goes by. I’m looking forward to their one month appointment next week to see how much they’ve grown in weight and height. Some days with them are super easy and others are really hard. Andrew and I are a great team and I’m so lucky to have an amazing husband to parent our babies with!

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you that I’m loving blogging again. It feels nice to have an outlet for my thoughts and I’m not putting pressure on myself to having a posting schedule or write about things I don’t care about. I’m gonna keep doing it until I either can’t keep it up any more or it becomes stressful like last time.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you I’m definitely over all this COVID-19 stuff. Where I live in Northern Michigan things are slowly opening back up but, especially now with new babies, I’m cautious to venture out or be around other people. Before it was because I didn’t want to get the virus while pregnant and either give it to them or be separated from them immediately after birth and now it’s because I don’t want them or me exposed to it. I wish it was less stressful and we could be around family without worry but we can’t. It’s not a risk we’re willing to take with them. Maybe one day. It wears on me mentally at times and I’m making an effort to get outside as often as I can to improve my mood and state of mind. That does help.

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you I already have work on my mind. Even though I don’t go back till July 4th I wish it was longer or that I could cut my hours down. Unfortunately neither are possible and that makes me a little sad. I’ll miss my babies so much! I’m dreading having to be apart from them for 36 hours a week. Hopefully it won’t be as bad as I’m imagining it will be. Fingers crossed!

If we were having lattes together, I would tell you I already miss being pregnant. I loved feeling them move inside of me and watching my belly grow every week (don’t miss the reflux and hip pain though!). I’m seriously considering us having another baby in the future. We’ve decided to wait and see how we do with the twins before we make a decision on calling it good or going for more, cause I’m sure they’ll be a handful as they get older. And besides, what’s to say it wouldn’t be twins again? Alexander and Audrey were spontaneous twins so it’s entirely possible it could happen again. Something for us to consider when we make our decision.

What would you talk about with me on our latte date? Anything on your mind or something interesting going on that you want to share? Tell me about it below in the comments!

That’s a wrap! It was great to catch up with you and I can’t wait for our next latte date. ☺️ Until then enjoy some pictures of the babies and my bump progression photo.

First Week At Home With Twins

I’ll be honest. I thought it would be harder. But having my husband on leave with me, being super supportive and helping as much as he can, has made having two babies fairly easy.

Don’t get me wrong! The lack of sleep and having to stay up on laundry and dishes (my hubby has been doing most of the cleaning) has been difficult in and of itself and breastfeeding has had its own challenges. But I’m loving being a mom and all of it is totally worth it for our sweet babies.

We discharged from the hospital after being there for 4 days (Wednesday morning thru Saturday night) and our first night was rough on me. I wanted the babies in my sight when I was trying to sleep and even then I was anxious about going to sleep and either not hearing them crying or choking. Plus around 4am they seemed to get extra fussy and wanted to cluster feed which wore me down mentally. In hindsight I realized I tried to take on too much myself and should have leaned on my husband more for support and help. I’m a prideful and independent person by nature so asking for help has always been hard for me.

After that first night we realized we needed to tweak our schedule to find a better routine. Now we’re doing shifts so that we can each get a chunk of sleep time and at least not be zombies all the time. I’ll pump once a day to have breast milk available for when I’m sleeping which is given to the babies before formula is offered if they’re still hungry.

In the hospital Alexander developed jaundice and had to be on a BiliLight to help pull the bilirubin out. The pediatrician wanted us to start supplementing feeds with formula to help clear his system out. We also made the decision to do this for Audrey too because she is the tinier twin. This has worked out well so far and they’ve started gaining weight back after their initial loss (this is normal with newborns due to water weight from floating in fluid for 9 months).

Our first pediatrician appointment was on the first Monday after we went home. They both had lost some weight which I took personally and had a crying episode in the office. I was trying so hard to stick to the 2-3 hour feeding schedule with breast milk first then formula and when I found out they were losing weight it made me feel like a failure, that I was doing it wrong or not doing enough (plus I was also super sleep deprived and hormonal). The doctor reassured me that she wasn’t concerned as this was an expected weight loss after birth which reassured me a lot. We also discovered that Alexander’s bilirubin levels were rising again and he needed to go back in the BiliLight to bring it down as well as increase his formula intake, which would help with the weight loss as well.

I had another mini breakdown at home about him needing the light again because I felt awful that he had to be on it in the hospital to begin with. I think a part of me felt like it was my fault because our blood types are different which they said increases the risk of jaundice and because he was stuck and I was pushing so hard for so long he came out with bruising on his face (I’ll go more in to detail about that in their birth post) which also increases the jaundice risk. Plus it was hard to watch him wear an eye mask to protect his eyes that he hated and kept pulling off. Turns out I needn’t have worried cause he didn’t even need the eye mask with this home machine which I was so thankful for. It was much easier to deal with!

Our second pediatrician appointment two days later went better. They both gained some ounces back and his bilirubin levels were low enough to not need the light anymore. 🙌🏻

Talk about a whirlwind week! Lots of emotions, adjustments, and, of course, as many baby snuggles as I could get. ☺️

The Quarantine Life

Let’s be real. While my introverted side loves to just be at home and literally have no plans or schedule, I, like I’m sure most everyone, am missing the normal life.

I recently switched from working night shift to day shift (like last week was my first week ever) and I didn’t even get to enjoy being on that schedule because I can’t go anywhere on my days off. Plus with our early labor start last week I’ve now started my maternity leave.

My daily schedule now consists of sleeping in (gotta enjoy it while I can!), eating breakfast, watch some YouTube, eat lunch/dinner, watch some Netflix (currently watching ‘Nailed It!’), snack throughout the rest of the evening while watching movies, shower or bath, then bedtime. Get up the next day and do it all over again.

It has taken some getting used to being home all the time and with Andrew working from home he’s here all the time too. I’m looking at this time home together as our mini babymoon before the babies get here (maybe next week!).

But I’m definitely looking forward to the day when we can finally go somewhere to either hang out like the park or with family or eat at a restaurant. It’d help if this Northern Michigan ‘spring’ weather cooperated and warmed up already! It’s been in the 30s this week but mostly sunny which is a painful combination cause I want to open the windows. It would help my mental health out a lot.

What are you looking forward to most when this quarantine time is over??